so far away

when you say that you love me

I just dont believe it

you are always ready to walk away

and never turn around

when people describe a friend

the way they think it is sounds flawless

you are not like that when you come to mind

there are many things I cant understand

numbers, logic, the way you are, your state of mind

no matter how much I try to make you happy

there is always something that isnt right

Im getting a hard time with that

when I say that I love you

you should know that I mean it

but Im giving you my love like its extra change

and I know its supposed to be worth millions

but you leave me out like a penny in the rain

and I feel bad about making so many mistakes

what if one of this days I need you?

could I call you up at 3:00 am to say hello?

could I run to you whenever I need a hug?

would you help me find a way when I know im lost?

people say:

back off

give it time

its gonna be alright

walk away

hang in there

I think most of them dont know what they say

do they know what I feel?

when I stay up and think about everything she said

when I wake up and cry about yesterday

when I feel left out, when I feel ignored

when I dont feel ok, when everything is wrong

cant write a single word

cuz it all gets messed up

sometimes I think

I dont know myself

and all I know its her

but every other day

you are standing there

saying you wont walk away

and everything's ok

but the next day

that hug feels so far away

and I dont want to end up losing you

or worse, losing myself

dont really know how I feel

dont even know if this is real

Im just writing down a bunch of words

they made sense in my head today

dont know if I have been thinking them since yesterday

dont know if tommorrow things may change

all I know is you are standing there

Im standing here

and that hug still feels so far away

from yesterday...

love.. always..! ♥

hope! ♥

will you come around?

I don't give a damn about her vain emotions
couldnt care less if she looks like your angel
all I know is that I'm scared
because if you had to choose between her
and awkward me
you wouldn't think twice
you would choose her in the blink of an eye
no, I don't want you to choose
I just want to know that if you had to
that there could be a small chance you could choose me.

I don't understand why
but she is everything you see
she is your perfection as perfect as a rainy day
you know what?
fine.
go with her
lets see how long it lasts
lets see how long she puts up with you
with the things you say and everything that you do
when it all comes to an end
I'll be right here waiting for you

I know you'll come around
I don't give up on friends
I'm always on your side
no one and I mean no one can ever change that
I dare them to try!

no one can see it our way
can we agree to disagree?
you think it would be easier
whenever you are not with me
but somehow we'll make it through
cuz we deserve it
I know you are worth it
you can't give up on friends
we need a little help
but none of us wants to call

so go.
I know you'll come around
well I hope you'll come around
will you come around?


"she is perfect in unusual ways, I'm not. right?
love...always....
hope..!

( Andrea) yeap I want an answer

writing in Titi's home, having a great time in a beautiful place called Miami!

I dont even know....!

got nothing more to give
I gave it all
gave smiles and tears
gave time gave ears to whatever you needed
gave words of whatever you wanted to hear
gave late night talks
gave my heart and soul
you say scream I scream
you smile I smile

I do everything for you
I would do everything you need
I want to know you the way you want to know her
I want to listen to you
and understand your fears and dreams

this is me
I'm as real as it gets when I'm with you
who are you?
what do you lie about?
you confuse me
you scare me

I dont ever know what to say
don't know if I should cry, smile or shout
I've seen your wings
you don't need help to fly
you just need to realize you are flying

damn it I love you, simple as that
and I'll keep loving you
no matter what you do
give up and love me too!


damn!! I dont even know if I should put this :D this :) this c(: this C: this :S this :( uggh I dnt know!!!!!!!

love always.....

hope!♥

what a show

I love it how we can keep on walking

pretending we didn't hear

pretending everything is fine.

that's gotta be easy

and it works every time...

so thats what we'll do

we are gonna walk

oh what a show I give

I pretend I hate you

I pretend I love you

I pretend I dont love you

I pretend I don't care

I pretend I don't cry

oh and it actually works!

I find it fascinating

how we believe anything

as to avoid the truth

that is easier we all now it

but sometimes it stops being fun

and I want to take off this mask

only one person has seen me without it

he doesnt even know it

but my! that felt great

not having to have that pressure on my back

for once

he saw the real me

now we can't go back

but we can always pretend we are going back

oh my! what a show....

love always

. ...........hope! ♥

yeah I've felt the pain of losing someone I really cared for

yeah I've watched them walk away from my life counting the steps they take

but I have never felt like this

the way I felt when you broke my heart

so empty so cold

just two nights ago

I can't say I stood there with my heart on one hand

no, you had it crushed in yours

I cried myself to sleep that night

my last thought was

"boy, I need a hug right now"

next morning my little brother

who is not a fan of waking up early

got up from his bed, half asleep

and hugged my legs

then he marched into his bed and kept sleeping

until mama woke him up

he is going to be a great man

his hug started to heal my broken heart...!♥

love...always...

hope!

finally hOme..♥

Sitting at home right now. This place don’t really feel like home to me, but you oh wow you. You feel like home to me, filled with hopes and dreams, love and softness.

I have been searching for a place where I can be myself, where there is always the beauty of a rainy day and a warm blanket on a cold night, yeah I have been looking for that place filled with life and happiness.

That place is you, oh beautiful you, with your dreams and your nightmares, with your smile and your happiness, with your attitude and your light.

You don’t back down when things don’t work out. I love ♥ the way you dance through life, leaving all your cares behind, putting your hands up in the air. These moments of craziness we share, you know exactly what to say to make me smile, you know exactly where I draw the line. You know what pisses me off, you are never out of second chances. You know I would go to the end of the world to find all the things that you need.

There are just a million reasons why I like to call you my best friend.

I know I said I thought this stupid communal world had catch you but I was wrong.

Because when all is said and done, everything’s wrong and I run to you, I’m finally home.

I’m Finally Home♥

love...always..

hope..!♥

Its Hard to Sleep Without the Moon

what is it with me lately?
I can't read, I can't think, even dreaming has become hard.
what happens after it is all said and done?
where do I go from here?
Once upon a time my life was a fairy tale, but then everything started falling apart.
Then you came along with you wise words and that insipiring smile of yours.
You gave me a hand and pulled me out of the hole I was stuck in
but.. Now what?
You are gone and I have no idea where to go from here
I've been so confused it's actually kind of weird
It cannot be that hard, letting you go is making me feel so cold
You are no longer near, so it should be easy
I'm gonna miss you, that's just a truth I can't deny
But in time it will get better, you'll just become a distant memory
And in years from now I'll beging to think you where nothing but a dream
Ok the truth is, I'm lying.
I'll never be able to forget you
all those lessons that you taught me
and all those moments I'll never forget
the time that you talked to me so honestly, tears filled your eyes
but I guess it's fine
I'll bealive all your lies if it means I'll be able to sleep at night
faking a smile every day
and crying every sleepless night
I'll just talk to the moon as if it where you
I know, well I hope wherever you are
you'll be listening

love always

hope!♥

In The Loneliness of my Nightmares

In the loneliness of my nightmares

I see a beautiful woman crying

a lost kid dying

an unknown person hiding

and I'm always running away

don't know from who

don't know from what

it's not a monster

I'm way past that

I'm not sure if it is a man

I just know there is a way out

and while I'm running away

I'm looking for the person who has the answer

I always fall

and whatever it is it's going to catch me

I start screaming

crying with this agony

my ankle hurts

I'm wearing a white dress that got dirty when I fell

I'm barefoot and scared

it's comming for me

I scream and then wake up

Neck is sweaty, covers are twisted, tears in my eyes daring to fall, the night is silent and I feel scared.

In the loneliness of my nightmares I can't seem to run to you! cuz you are never there.. :[

love...always...

hope!♥

I Miss You (cliche I know)

ok so apparently I'm not that good as a writer [thank you Luis I appreciate it] so I'm just gonna write and hope it doesn't come out teen and stupid [again thank you Luis]

well if I could just talk to him maybe I would understand, I mean I thought we were like friends or something but the more I think about it the more I seem to think that even though I considered him my friend he probably didn't consider me his.

I do miss him, no matter how much I wish I didn't. I don't think I've ever told anyone what I told him.

I guess he is just one of those people you loose even though you didn't want to, I guess it's just one more punch life will throw.

If I ever see him again I'll stand there and say "I missed you" then I would walk away probably hidding the tears...

I miss you I really do, I just don't know how to deal with this world without you... damn..

love...always

hope!♥

wish you weren't always on my mind
wish I could stop writing about you
wish every song wouldn't remind me of you

wish you could see me wanting you just the way you want her
wish you could see us in a near future
wish you could understand you are my light

if you cry I cry
I you die I'll cry you back to life
if you smile I couldn't be happier
if you shine I'll steal a star and shine for you

wish she would love you just to see you happy
wish she could see how fascinating you are
wish she would notice the way your eyes light up when she is around

wish you could love me
we could be this beautiful, new born miracle
wish to you I wasn't invisible..!

love....always....
hope!♥

ughh... I have never had a day like this one... I wish I could just rewind & change everything that went wrong I think that when life sucks you need to grow up and get over it.
I guess I'm going to grow up:
->he won't fall inlove with me (acceptance)
->some friends don't ALWAYS know when is your breaking point (acceptance)
->it's never gonna be enough (acceptance)

I want to make history, I hope one day I will... but for now I'm just gonna try and wrap my head around this 3 things and then I'm going to think about the rest of my life. I'll just take it step by step and one day at a time.....

I just wish he wasn't so beautiful...
I just wish she ALWAYS knew....
I just wish it was enough....

love always....!
hope♥!

rain=beautiful

today it was raining.. wow it was amazing! I was outside and I don't think I've ever felt this way it actually felt like the rain was washing it all away I didn't care that faceless boy liked Ally anymore I didn't care that the jerk was coming back, it was me, the rain and those beautiful moments in my life...! I♥ everyone who was there when it was raining they made my day.. The rain turned the worst day of my life into something incredibly beautiful, my tears were mixing with the raidrops and they where a miz of joy and sadness.... beautiful..♥ today just took my breath away...
love always...
hope♥

this ain't the best years of my life

so second year of high school.

You walk in your class, damn your best friend Danii ain't in your class.

Joselyn and Genesis are there though so it's all good. Three months later you sit in class behind a brunnete named Sofi ( most amazing person ever), on one of your sides you have Joe (he has a way of making you laugh even when tears are rolling down your cheeks) on your other side there is Luis (interesting, confusing, head-hurts, weird creepy person) two sits away there is Genesis (innocent, sweet and beautiful, everyone likes her and you love her like a sister that got lost somewhere) right beside her there is Joselyn (used to be the greatest friend in the world, you lost her at some point, you are trying to fix that friendship). After that well, you are an outcast, you feel lost most of the time and the world it's just not right.

But if you see it from the outside it's really not that bad, I know you are different. But in the real world its not a curse it means you have something to hold on to, I know in high school it just sets you apart but, so what? Those kids won't take a day in the real world but you will cuz there is something right there that makes you special.

There are people that say "enjoy high school cuz those are the best moments of your life" I think that's not true, I think the best moments of my life are yet to come.

No I don't mean my wedding day or graduation, I mean pure out of nowhere moments like:

-> a kiss in the puring rain

-> sitting at the beach, watching the waves crash the shore

-> staring at the stars

->sitting on my window, writing, making art

-> waking up after a beautiful dream in the middle of the night and look outside, stare at the stars, with an open heart

->trying to heal your best friend's broken heart

moments that are real, that are pure, as pure as a kid's laughter, moments you wanna keep in a box save them for a starless night or when the night is cold.

Don't make high school everything, because if high school is everything what the hell do I have left?

love...always...hope♥

Beautiful Eyes

we where standing in an empty hallway

you looked at me and inside I knew

I could have melted right then and there

you stared at me with those amazing eyes

oh oh boy you've got me hipnotized

->cuz I don't care if you break my heart

I don't care if you tear me apart

I just want to stare at your beautiful eyes

I don't care if it hurts inside

I don't care if you make me cry

just look at me with your beautiful eyes

oh oh beautiful eyes<-

you out those eyes on me

run your fingers through your hair and swear

you'll never fall in love again

oh oh my I hope you are wrong

and we just stood there

with nothing to say

your eyes tell more stories

than I have ever heard

->cuz I don't care if you break my heart

I don't care if you tear me apart

I just want to stare at your beautiful eyes

I don't care if it hurts inside

I don't care if you make me cry

just look at me with your beautiful eyes

oh oh beautiful eyes<-

I love the way you smile

I love your hands and your arms around me

I wanna find your heart, wherever it is,

I wanna melt it now, tear down the ice

I wanna hold you thight, never let you go

lead me up the staircase

whisper soft and slow

go on tell me lies with your beautiful eyes

->so I don't care if you break my heart

I don't care if you tear me apart

I just want to stare at your beautiful eyes

I don't care if it hurts inside

I don't care if you make me cry

just look at me with your beautiful eyes

oh oh beautiful eyes<-

oh nameless boy you got me under your spell, you mean the world to me, I just want to scream to you "yes it's you I'm talking about damn it!!!!" ughh can't you see that you mean everything!!

"love..always...hope"

untouchable....

Lucky wrote a song for the beautiful nameless boy, so this one is for you nameless boy, Lucky really wishes you are reading this:

UNTOUCHABLE

untouchable like a star

like a cloud up in heaven

baby I've seen you

you look like an angel

believe me there is no one else

-> untouchable like the rain on a desert

untouchable like a glimpse of heaven

untouchable like the stars in your eye

like a fire that's not burning

untouchable like the air

like my dreams fading away

untouchable, untouchable, untouchable <-

I love the way you talk,

the way you walk

the way you say my name

you are beautiful, wonderful

don't you dare to change

the way you move

I just can't stop myself

and when you hug me

I just love the way you smell

sometimes I find myself

staring at the air

picturing your face

hmmm I can't help myself

-> untouchable like the rain on a desert

untouchable like a glimpse of heaven

untouchable like the stars in your eye

like a fire that's not burning

untouchable like the air

like my dreams fading away

untouchable, untouchable, untouchable <-

I get lost in your eyes

every time you talk to me

you can find everything

that I try to hide

and I don't mind

I don't really care

all I know is that you are standing there

-> untouchable like the rain on a desert

untouchable like a glimpse of heaven

untouchable like the stars in your eye

like a fire that's not burning

untouchable like the air

like my dreams fading away

untouchable, untouchable, untouchable <-

kiss me in the middle of the dessert

with the burning sun

when there is a rainstorm

let's grab a little bit of air

open your eyes

and we'll get a glimpse of heaven

say that we'll be together

cuz I can't wait forever

untouchable

you are beautiful

untouchable, untouchable, untochable

"oh nameless boy, you are untouchable"

love..always...hope! ♥

the story of a girl..

this is the story of a girl, named Lucky in a starlight nigh, who tried to let go, of the beautiful boy with the dreamy hazel eyes and the wavy black hair, he swore he would enver fall inlove but he fell inlove with another girl, let's call her Ally, Ally was the kind of girl who every boy fell for, she was sweet, nice innocent, BEAUTIFUL, funny and always had a smile on her pretty face.
Sadly Lucky was nothing like Ally, lucky hid her smile cuz it was weird, she wasn't funny; she was sarcastic, she wasnt beautiful; she was plain, she was sweet; when she wasn't being sarcastic, and she was innocent, but in a different way.
Lucky was very different to the other girls.
Lucky's teacher gave her a worksheet with a very simple question: "who are you?".
Lucky stood up and talked to this boy, a guy named Stephen and Ally, when Stephen left Lucky felt left out since the boy she was fascinated with was drooling over Ally, she left too.
Lucky was sitting in her desk and right there in the worksheet she had written in blue pen: who am I you ask? well I'm a girl with a dream that he'll stop staring at her and really look at me.
Lucky raised her head and saw this boy looking at Ally like she was the last person alive in the Earth, his only hope and reason of living, the only thing he believes in. Then one single teardrop fell down her cheek and the last words she said were:
I am Lucky? no, no,no oh Ally lucky you....

ok so lucky Ally right? but what happened to Lucky is she alrigth? I wish she was but she is not, so if the nameless boy is reading this: give Lucky a chance she is also beautiful in a very different way we are all Lucky at some point but I think this particular Lucky needs him to look at her instead of patting her head and telling her she is a good friend...

"mujer de mi vida....niña de mis ojos....
tengo esperanza en que me des esperanza...
se que nunca fallas"

love..always....hope!♥

Hope is feeling sad today... :(

hmmm

soo... not too long ago I met this guy.. he is sweet, funny reminds me so much of my awsome best friend and even though he probably doesn't know it he taught me a lesson, that I thought I already knew... LIFE IS HARD I KNOW IT YOU KNOW IT BUT IT'LL GET BETTER... I thought I knew that turns out I didn't fully understood it untill now, cheesy? maybe but true, so keep living cuz one day, no one knows when it'll get better!

you're special des..!

niña de mis ojos.. mujer de mi vida...
tengo esperanza en que me des esperanza....
se que nunca fallas...!

love... always....hope!♥

once I met a girl with the biggest heart, everyone around her had no choice but to smile,

like her more than chocolate if you ask me, she makes me feel like me

oh my best friend. What is it that makes her so great?

I think is the way she doesn't really mind that I have flaws, because she knows she is not perfect either, probably the way she can tell me anything making me feel like I can tell her everything! I get to be myself around her. At first we didn't like each other but then I realized how awsome she is and I guess she found something in me, three years later here we are, but what would have happened if we let our judments and pride win, we'd both lost a great person in our lives, a person that helped us get through heartbreaks, tears and a person that shared with us laughter, dreams and more.... All I'm saying is there are alot of amazing people in the world and we can't get to know them if we put pride aside and let go of the judgements.. who knows maybe you'll find an awsome best friend like I did!

love ya danii!

niña de mis ojos... mujer de mi vida..

tengo esperanza en que me des esperanza...

se que nunca fallas....

love...always...hope!♥

acceptance

Once I read this really pretty quote that said: ACCEPTANCE IS LOOKING WITH YOUR HEART ♥ AND NOT WITH YOUR EYES..
I think whoever said that was probably right. We should really start ignoring what our eyes say to our mind and listening to what the heart has got to say. In my expirience people who don't accept other people, turn into bullies, and most rational people, or irational fot that matter, don't like bullies. I don't think it is really worth to miss out on having a great friends just because you don't like their shoes... I know sometimes it is all about appearance but, why live in a world like that? If we learn to accept people as they are, we won't be afraid of being who we are... it is not that hard just get your feet to the ground and love everyone around!

"mujer de mi vida...niña de mis ojos...
tengo esperanza en que me des esperanza....
se que nunca fallas...."
love...always...
hope!♥

I always thought of love as something great
I guess this is something else
I always wanted a fairy tale
Aurora's dream
Cindirella's shoes
Snow White's skin
A kiss that makes my head spin
you can't give me that
which, by the way, makes me sad
you have no sweetness
but you got a passion I can't resist
you are never gentle
but your strong personality,
always gets to me
you wouldn't sweep my feet of the ground
you take me by the hand
and drag me headfirst
falling head over heels
it's so tragic
but I'm so in it
I can't help it
you really blow me away
even though
you are absoulutly
not what I hoped for...

hope you enjoyed it! :)
"mujer de mi vida...niña de mis ojos...
tengo esperanza en que me des esperanza...
se que nunca fallas"

love... always...
hope!♥

you are beautiful..

"you are beautiful".... It would be amazing to hear those words every once in a while, I wonder if anyone has heard them exactly when they need it, I mean, what if that popular girl is all alone in a dark night and needs to hear it, does she remembers what that boy told her or does she knows it is just superficial? Or what about that girl who is always treated like crap at school and she's bullied by even her closest friends and she never hears them, especially when she is crying and no one can hear her? What about that boy who is different from everyone else, just trying to fit in, who plays the guitar and draws amazingly but no one ever notices it, and when he is locked up in his room with the music banging so loud it look like the windows are gonna break and the neighbors knock on his door but nobody can see he screaming? Or what about me... The weird girl, with a love for poetry, a weird smile, eyes filled with tears craving to hear those words? Who says it? When is it the right time to say it? Do they mean it? Is it real? Who knows.... I don't even know if anyone is reading this, but if you are I want to say you are beautiful. To everyone who is out there, yeah I'm talking to all of you; the ones who feel different, the ones who feel plain, common, happy, sad, trapped, scared, blessed, nervous, changed, brave, insane, crazy, normal, shy, outgoing, ugly all of you whatever you are feeling I believe you are beautiful.

I hope someone out there is reading this, I need to get it out, I would love to hear anything really, probably I'm crazy, and even though I don't believe I am beautiful, I believe you are... the believers, the nonbelievers, the ones who share, the ones who keep, the ones who hold all of you... you are beautiful inside and out.... I strongly believe so....

mujer de mi vida....niña de mis ojos...tengo esperanza en que me des esperanza...se que nunca falllas......

love....always...
hope♥

This world is beautiful. Every time I look around I know that God was not only a genious but he was an artist. Because if you really take the time to look you realise that every flower and every ocean is a masterpiece. Still life tends to amaze me even more. You see there are so many people in this world & I still manage to feel lonely. I just want someone to love me, to need me, to want me for the person that I truly am. Not just what I let show. I want someone to find everything I hide. I hope that things will be ok. Life it's beautiful no matter how much stupid things you need to endure someday you'll look back & think "it was worth it". At least I hope you do.

mujer de mi vida.... niña de mis ojos... tengo esperanza en que me des esperanza... se que nunca me fallas....
love always♥..
hope..!