so far away

when you say that you love me

I just dont believe it

you are always ready to walk away

and never turn around

when people describe a friend

the way they think it is sounds flawless

you are not like that when you come to mind

there are many things I cant understand

numbers, logic, the way you are, your state of mind

no matter how much I try to make you happy

there is always something that isnt right

Im getting a hard time with that

when I say that I love you

you should know that I mean it

but Im giving you my love like its extra change

and I know its supposed to be worth millions

but you leave me out like a penny in the rain

and I feel bad about making so many mistakes

what if one of this days I need you?

could I call you up at 3:00 am to say hello?

could I run to you whenever I need a hug?

would you help me find a way when I know im lost?

people say:

back off

give it time

its gonna be alright

walk away

hang in there

I think most of them dont know what they say

do they know what I feel?

when I stay up and think about everything she said

when I wake up and cry about yesterday

when I feel left out, when I feel ignored

when I dont feel ok, when everything is wrong

cant write a single word

cuz it all gets messed up

sometimes I think

I dont know myself

and all I know its her

but every other day

you are standing there

saying you wont walk away

and everything's ok

but the next day

that hug feels so far away

and I dont want to end up losing you

or worse, losing myself

dont really know how I feel

dont even know if this is real

Im just writing down a bunch of words

they made sense in my head today

dont know if I have been thinking them since yesterday

dont know if tommorrow things may change

all I know is you are standing there

Im standing here

and that hug still feels so far away

from yesterday...

love.. always..! ♥

hope! ♥