Tu.

Me duele lo mucho que te extaño

Me duele que estes a un "lo siento" de aqui

Esque no te encuentro en este laberinto de gente

Una noche te encontre entre las tinieblas de mis sueños

Pero estabas tan lejos ahí como lo estas aquí

A veces te siento en la sombra de mis labios

Tu precencia tan viva a la orilla de nuestro primer beso

Y nunca te senti tan cerca, tan perfecto

Te necesito como necesito escribir

Te extraño como el muerto extraña vivir

Te siento en cada talvez que llega a mi vida

te miro en cada esquina

Trato de seguirte a donde vas

Pero no logro alcanzarte

Te mueves muy rapido y me quedo atras

Me canso de escucharte pero extraño tu voz

Si te digo que regreses?

te sentire una vez mas a mi lado?

Si te digo que lo siento?

me crees?

Dos orgullos desenfrenados

Tratando de ganar una carrera inexistente

Regresa con la divina naturaleza que te hace ser niño

Escribe tu nombre en mis labios una y otra vez

Porque estas aquí, eres una parte de mi

Lo siento, pero no vale la pena decirtelo.

Te quiero, pero si te importara no te hubieras ido.

No me dejes sola nunca mas,

Solo alejate y dejame encontrar paz

Quien Soy?

yo sueño con viajar

estar lejos de este lugar

sueño con la inexistente inocencia

que cabe en donde nadie me puede tocar.

pero estoy aqui

atrapada en un mundo que no parece mio

donde no conozco nada

y cada paso que doy es un paso vacio

no dejo de encontrar cosas nuevas

y me enamoran las trivialidades

los seres humanos me repulsan

y escribir me mantiene viva.

creo que al conocerte

y obsesionarme con cada detalle

solo trataba de encontrar

rastros de quien soy.

de todas formas sigo vacia

sigo sin conocer nada de mi misma

no puedo satisfacer mi curiosidad

no hay trivialidades entretenidas en un ser humano compulsivo.

dejame extrañarte

para conocerme

y poder saber lo que siento

quien soy? tu me conocias, tu sabes?

I Lie

I love this moment
I love how perfect you look
And the scenary is beautiful
You made me a chandelier
Of hand picked stars
And I love this atmosphere

Sitting underneath a tree
Barefoot just you and me
And I love your guitar
Playing my favorite song.

Am I the only one who felt that?
The magic in your eyes
It feels like I've never felt this way before
And I've never been hurt
You're the sweetest thing
So keep singing to me

I cant give you love
Its not in my nature
So you better run
Cuz when I say I love you
Im lying through my teeth.

"lord voldemort would look cute with a puppy"

I Hate You

I hate you.

3 cinical words

do you know them?

have you heard them?

well here they go:

I hate you.

I hate your hair.

I hate your favorite color.

I hate your songs & those wise words of yours.

I hate you.

I dont like your opinions

sometimes you get that stick up your ass

I hate that stick.

I hate your laugh & that crooked smile of yours.

I hate the air you breath.

I hate the endings of your stories & the punchlines of your jokes.

I hate your hands.

I hate you.

I hate the way that you cry

I hate the apple of your pie

I also hate the pie.

& I, I liked you

now I, yeah I,

I hate you.

& I hate this girl

sitting on the couch

tangled in her books

trying to ignore the thoughts of you.

& I hate that boy

that cried to me

he lied to me

I hate us.

remember that?

remember?

who could forget?

"I love us"

wasnt that perfect?

now Im sitting here

hating you.

I hate you

I hate your handsI hate your eyes

I hate your lies.

the tears you cried.

I hate it all.

I hate you

for making me love you

I hate you like I love you

so close, so far apart.

back off, so we can go back to the start.

or dont.

I hate you.

I hate you.

The Ultimatom

"what would you choose? when it comes to this, a final question you wish you didnt have to answer, tell me: what would YOU do?"

There's a guitar in your hands

that Ill never forget

There's a look in his eyes

that is filled with regret

Then you talked to me

'till 1:00 am to make it ok

to help me forget the pain

untill I started to dream of a land far away

so when he came to me

raising his hand

told me to choose

there was no doubt in my mind

that I would choose you

over the kicks & the pain

over the fear & the screams

cuz with you I feel safe

and suddenly he can't touch me

and the fear goes away

Im finally free

because you taught me

to keep my head high

that there was more to life

and that Id walk away someday

so when he came to me

raising his hand

told me to choose

there was no doubt in my mind

that I would choose you

over the kicks & the pain

over the fear & the screams

and I know that its worth it

yeah I'll put up a fight

and I know that its worth it

Ill keep my head high

there is a look in his eyes

that is filled with regret

there is a guitar in your hands

that Ill never forget.

Sweetest Goodbye

"saying goodbye its hard. Its really hard, but sometimes you gotta learn to walk away, walking away might leave an empty space but with empty spaces there is more room for creativity"

you decided to push me around

turned me into no one

I cried myself to sleep

kept quiet after every hit

but who are you to make me feel

the way I do?

you broke a part of me

and I tried to put it back together

but I'll never be the same

I was nothing but a little girl

you made me scared of a world

that was supposed to be mine

now here we are

look at me

this is what you did

Im your sick work of art

you couldnt bother to draw a smile

got tired of singing

to your twisted synphony

made me feel special

thought you believed in me

then you closed all your doors

left me all alone

with paper and pen

to try and forget

I became a torture toy

girls, teachers, they all looked away

so thank them

cuz nobody knows

your secret is safe

I remember them clearly

the ones who saw everything

yet said nothing

haven't told a soul.

just look away

nothing special about you anyway

nothing but a soon to be used to be

a trophy wife

with an emptey house and a hollow heart

a husband who cheats

with a youger version of

who you thought you were

then someone came along

showed me a bigger world

I got pushed in the arms of the sky

and the warmth of arts

then he broke me again

but I had learned

I've been keeping count

his broken promises,

all those "special" moments.

all the lies

the "stay quiet" screams

they dont mean a thing

you'll keep your glass full with cheap wine

and your husband has no eyes for you

and he'll stay awake every night

wondering the reasons why

and my voice is louder than ever

screaming from the top of the bottom

being the hope of the hollow

proudly wearing scars

gather up all my courage

kissing your bullying goodbye

I made it through

time heals almost everything

darling dont you know?

you were my sweetest goodbye

Should Have Wondered About You

"sometimes you watch a person live their life in a beautiful way, you never get up, you never talk, you dont take the time. beautiful people all round this world. a poem about a boy I never knew had some sort of impact on me. I had no idea! untill now, when every sunday there's a laughter missing, I never wondered.... glenn, I should have wondered.."

Across a tired empty room

I saw your face

Got so used to it

Never wondered

What was behind the jokes

Never wondered about you, boy

*and now that something’s missing

And there’s a sense of emptiness no one can fill

Now, I wonder who you were

And its too late now

Should have sat next to you

Should have made you my friend

Should have wondered*

I never stopped to think

What it would be like

If you left

Never thought it was you

Who made everybody laugh

Never wondered about you, boy

*and now that something’s missing

And there’s a sense of emptiness no one can fill

Now, I wonder who you were

And its too late now

Should have sat next to you

Should have made you my friend

Should have wondered*

And through dead leaves,

Snow falls,

Hot summer days

And warm spring nights

I hope you can still light up a room

I hope you dance the way you do

I hope you never hide in a corner

I hope you’ll always smile

Should have wondered about you, boy