ughh... I have never had a day like this one... I wish I could just rewind & change everything that went wrong I think that when life sucks you need to grow up and get over it.
I guess I'm going to grow up:
->he won't fall inlove with me (acceptance)
->some friends don't ALWAYS know when is your breaking point (acceptance)
->it's never gonna be enough (acceptance)

I want to make history, I hope one day I will... but for now I'm just gonna try and wrap my head around this 3 things and then I'm going to think about the rest of my life. I'll just take it step by step and one day at a time.....

I just wish he wasn't so beautiful...
I just wish she ALWAYS knew....
I just wish it was enough....

love always....!
hope♥!

rain=beautiful

today it was raining.. wow it was amazing! I was outside and I don't think I've ever felt this way it actually felt like the rain was washing it all away I didn't care that faceless boy liked Ally anymore I didn't care that the jerk was coming back, it was me, the rain and those beautiful moments in my life...! I♥ everyone who was there when it was raining they made my day.. The rain turned the worst day of my life into something incredibly beautiful, my tears were mixing with the raidrops and they where a miz of joy and sadness.... beautiful..♥ today just took my breath away...
love always...
hope♥

this ain't the best years of my life

so second year of high school.

You walk in your class, damn your best friend Danii ain't in your class.

Joselyn and Genesis are there though so it's all good. Three months later you sit in class behind a brunnete named Sofi ( most amazing person ever), on one of your sides you have Joe (he has a way of making you laugh even when tears are rolling down your cheeks) on your other side there is Luis (interesting, confusing, head-hurts, weird creepy person) two sits away there is Genesis (innocent, sweet and beautiful, everyone likes her and you love her like a sister that got lost somewhere) right beside her there is Joselyn (used to be the greatest friend in the world, you lost her at some point, you are trying to fix that friendship). After that well, you are an outcast, you feel lost most of the time and the world it's just not right.

But if you see it from the outside it's really not that bad, I know you are different. But in the real world its not a curse it means you have something to hold on to, I know in high school it just sets you apart but, so what? Those kids won't take a day in the real world but you will cuz there is something right there that makes you special.

There are people that say "enjoy high school cuz those are the best moments of your life" I think that's not true, I think the best moments of my life are yet to come.

No I don't mean my wedding day or graduation, I mean pure out of nowhere moments like:

-> a kiss in the puring rain

-> sitting at the beach, watching the waves crash the shore

-> staring at the stars

->sitting on my window, writing, making art

-> waking up after a beautiful dream in the middle of the night and look outside, stare at the stars, with an open heart

->trying to heal your best friend's broken heart

moments that are real, that are pure, as pure as a kid's laughter, moments you wanna keep in a box save them for a starless night or when the night is cold.

Don't make high school everything, because if high school is everything what the hell do I have left?

love...always...hope♥

Beautiful Eyes

we where standing in an empty hallway

you looked at me and inside I knew

I could have melted right then and there

you stared at me with those amazing eyes

oh oh boy you've got me hipnotized

->cuz I don't care if you break my heart

I don't care if you tear me apart

I just want to stare at your beautiful eyes

I don't care if it hurts inside

I don't care if you make me cry

just look at me with your beautiful eyes

oh oh beautiful eyes<-

you out those eyes on me

run your fingers through your hair and swear

you'll never fall in love again

oh oh my I hope you are wrong

and we just stood there

with nothing to say

your eyes tell more stories

than I have ever heard

->cuz I don't care if you break my heart

I don't care if you tear me apart

I just want to stare at your beautiful eyes

I don't care if it hurts inside

I don't care if you make me cry

just look at me with your beautiful eyes

oh oh beautiful eyes<-

I love the way you smile

I love your hands and your arms around me

I wanna find your heart, wherever it is,

I wanna melt it now, tear down the ice

I wanna hold you thight, never let you go

lead me up the staircase

whisper soft and slow

go on tell me lies with your beautiful eyes

->so I don't care if you break my heart

I don't care if you tear me apart

I just want to stare at your beautiful eyes

I don't care if it hurts inside

I don't care if you make me cry

just look at me with your beautiful eyes

oh oh beautiful eyes<-

oh nameless boy you got me under your spell, you mean the world to me, I just want to scream to you "yes it's you I'm talking about damn it!!!!" ughh can't you see that you mean everything!!

"love..always...hope"

untouchable....

Lucky wrote a song for the beautiful nameless boy, so this one is for you nameless boy, Lucky really wishes you are reading this:

UNTOUCHABLE

untouchable like a star

like a cloud up in heaven

baby I've seen you

you look like an angel

believe me there is no one else

-> untouchable like the rain on a desert

untouchable like a glimpse of heaven

untouchable like the stars in your eye

like a fire that's not burning

untouchable like the air

like my dreams fading away

untouchable, untouchable, untouchable <-

I love the way you talk,

the way you walk

the way you say my name

you are beautiful, wonderful

don't you dare to change

the way you move

I just can't stop myself

and when you hug me

I just love the way you smell

sometimes I find myself

staring at the air

picturing your face

hmmm I can't help myself

-> untouchable like the rain on a desert

untouchable like a glimpse of heaven

untouchable like the stars in your eye

like a fire that's not burning

untouchable like the air

like my dreams fading away

untouchable, untouchable, untouchable <-

I get lost in your eyes

every time you talk to me

you can find everything

that I try to hide

and I don't mind

I don't really care

all I know is that you are standing there

-> untouchable like the rain on a desert

untouchable like a glimpse of heaven

untouchable like the stars in your eye

like a fire that's not burning

untouchable like the air

like my dreams fading away

untouchable, untouchable, untouchable <-

kiss me in the middle of the dessert

with the burning sun

when there is a rainstorm

let's grab a little bit of air

open your eyes

and we'll get a glimpse of heaven

say that we'll be together

cuz I can't wait forever

untouchable

you are beautiful

untouchable, untouchable, untochable

"oh nameless boy, you are untouchable"

love..always...hope! ♥

the story of a girl..

this is the story of a girl, named Lucky in a starlight nigh, who tried to let go, of the beautiful boy with the dreamy hazel eyes and the wavy black hair, he swore he would enver fall inlove but he fell inlove with another girl, let's call her Ally, Ally was the kind of girl who every boy fell for, she was sweet, nice innocent, BEAUTIFUL, funny and always had a smile on her pretty face.
Sadly Lucky was nothing like Ally, lucky hid her smile cuz it was weird, she wasn't funny; she was sarcastic, she wasnt beautiful; she was plain, she was sweet; when she wasn't being sarcastic, and she was innocent, but in a different way.
Lucky was very different to the other girls.
Lucky's teacher gave her a worksheet with a very simple question: "who are you?".
Lucky stood up and talked to this boy, a guy named Stephen and Ally, when Stephen left Lucky felt left out since the boy she was fascinated with was drooling over Ally, she left too.
Lucky was sitting in her desk and right there in the worksheet she had written in blue pen: who am I you ask? well I'm a girl with a dream that he'll stop staring at her and really look at me.
Lucky raised her head and saw this boy looking at Ally like she was the last person alive in the Earth, his only hope and reason of living, the only thing he believes in. Then one single teardrop fell down her cheek and the last words she said were:
I am Lucky? no, no,no oh Ally lucky you....

ok so lucky Ally right? but what happened to Lucky is she alrigth? I wish she was but she is not, so if the nameless boy is reading this: give Lucky a chance she is also beautiful in a very different way we are all Lucky at some point but I think this particular Lucky needs him to look at her instead of patting her head and telling her she is a good friend...

"mujer de mi vida....niña de mis ojos....
tengo esperanza en que me des esperanza...
se que nunca fallas"

love..always....hope!♥

Hope is feeling sad today... :(

hmmm

soo... not too long ago I met this guy.. he is sweet, funny reminds me so much of my awsome best friend and even though he probably doesn't know it he taught me a lesson, that I thought I already knew... LIFE IS HARD I KNOW IT YOU KNOW IT BUT IT'LL GET BETTER... I thought I knew that turns out I didn't fully understood it untill now, cheesy? maybe but true, so keep living cuz one day, no one knows when it'll get better!

you're special des..!

niña de mis ojos.. mujer de mi vida...
tengo esperanza en que me des esperanza....
se que nunca fallas...!

love... always....hope!♥

once I met a girl with the biggest heart, everyone around her had no choice but to smile,

like her more than chocolate if you ask me, she makes me feel like me

oh my best friend. What is it that makes her so great?

I think is the way she doesn't really mind that I have flaws, because she knows she is not perfect either, probably the way she can tell me anything making me feel like I can tell her everything! I get to be myself around her. At first we didn't like each other but then I realized how awsome she is and I guess she found something in me, three years later here we are, but what would have happened if we let our judments and pride win, we'd both lost a great person in our lives, a person that helped us get through heartbreaks, tears and a person that shared with us laughter, dreams and more.... All I'm saying is there are alot of amazing people in the world and we can't get to know them if we put pride aside and let go of the judgements.. who knows maybe you'll find an awsome best friend like I did!

love ya danii!

niña de mis ojos... mujer de mi vida..

tengo esperanza en que me des esperanza...

se que nunca fallas....

love...always...hope!♥