August

"in this life, there are words we have to say, though we have no idea how. I cant just say nothing.. so maybe its a little biit late, maybe I should have said something whe it really did hurt. even though its late now... and its a pain I cant feel anymore, I cant let it pass without saying anything."

we have been playing games for a long time

you hate to lose and I dont mind

so I've kept quiet everytime

dont you think you went to far?

this time...

*you said you were sorry everytime

said you'd make it ok

and It was for a while

you said sorry, sorry, sorry

while I cried

and another augost will come around

you'll say sorry

I dont wanna cry this time,

not this time,

in august*

and I dont wanna try anymore

dont want it back the way it was before

I just wanna be alone

away from this scary world

you say you're sorry,

but you're not.

you say its gonna be different

it never is

you say you'll stop the tears

you never do

I say its ok,

but its not.

*you said you were sorry everytime

said you'd make it ok

and It was for a while

you said sorry, sorry, sorry

while I cried

and another augost will come around

you'll say sorry

I dont wanna cry this time,

not this time,

in august*

the nights are long

the days are cold

you were the sun

but you aint here anymore

I used to say

I was love while you were hate

was I right?

is it really so black and white?

our worlds are so close,

yet so far apart.

*you said you were sorry everytime

said you'd make it ok

and It was for a while

you said sorry, sorry, sorry

while I cried

and another augost will come around

you'll say sorry

I dont wanna cry this time,

not this time,

in august*

oh oh I need you

and we're standing in the rain

are things really gonna change?

do you have something to say?

oh oh I need you

oh oh this august I'll miss you...

you, you, you...

in august I'll miss you

I Swear It's True (poem against suicide)

the only one who doesnt see the stars in your eyes

is the face in the mirror that looks back at you

and you might not see the light but I do

I swear its true

five minutes with you were enchanting

dont take away your precious life

cuz I believe in the stars that are shining

and they are lighting the sky for you

I swear its true

and I can see God almighty smiling

cuz you are alive tonight

and I'm smiling too

cuz you made me laugh

I swear its true

writing about someone across the world

might seem scary or weird some may say

but I know a good soul when I feel it

and it be the a big loss

the earth will cry for days

I swear its true

you called me pretty and I smiled

no one had done that in a while

I'll take care of you like old friends do

I swear its true

you gotta be alive and I'll be here for you

just one more night say everyday

somehow you will make it through

I swear its true (:

Hey Joe

so much I wanna say

but words fall into an empty space

I know she must be waiting up

sitting at home, holding her phone

she's been waiting for your call

that's what I tell myself

it's a lame excuse for not calling you

and hear you say my name

it's just my broken heart talking

saying "dont break me again"

and I miss you like air

I feel you on every breath

coming through my veins

I pick up the phone, dial the numbers

I've had memorized for so long

the screen says joe

right before I press call

figure you're busy,

perhaps talking to her

so I drop the phone

go back to the floor

I rememeber the last time we talked

you said we'd be Ok

chorus->

hey Joe! there's something you must know

lately I've been staying up missing you

building again all my walls

hey Joe! maybe something went wrong

you couldnt stand the girl in the corner for too long,

I was that girl and I wrote you a song

hey Joe! I want to come home

you were a sparkly person in the world

tell me where did you go?

I should have known....

superman! wont you save this?

like when we were best friends

hey superman! cant you save us?

our friendship aint strong enough?

remember I wrote you that superman song

"Why Cant We Be Friends?!

plays in the radio

and I wonder that same thing

my head feels haunted by questions

were are we now?

sitting in the cold floor

trying to work it out

rehearsing a speech

I may never say

why cant we be innocents?

holding hands through december

I just hope you'll remember

the fireworks over this sad lonely town

darkness falls

this is turning into a very long song

chorus->

hey Joe! there's something you must know

lately I've been staying up missing you

building again all my walls

hey Joe! maybe something went wrong

you couldnt stand the girl in the corner for too long,

I was that girl and I wrote you a song

hey Joe! I want to come home

you were a sparkly person in the world

tell me where did you go?

I should have known....

I wish I could blame her

so I can be mad at someone

but it was nobody's fault

not even mine

we had a fall out

I hope we make it through but if we dont

I'll miss you always

and if you have kids

and they point at the pictures

please tell them my name

maybe you'll even say:

"she wrote the book,

at the top of our booskshelve,

she wrote me a song

about being her superman

we were best friends at the time"

I want you to know

you are better than superman

nothing's changed, no one will ever take your palace

yeah if we dont

remember through the cold

"hey joe"

chorus->

hey Joe! there's something you must know

lately I've been staying up missing you

building again all my walls

hey Joe! maybe something went wrong

you couldnt stand the girl in the corner for too long,

I was that girl and I wrote you a song

hey Joe! I want to come home

you were a sparkly person in the world

tell me where did you go?

I should have known....

untie me

I’m just a dreamer

A hopeless girl

Who told her best friend

“I know he doesn’t mean it, I’ll deal with it”

You talk to me, I look up into your eyes

You push me around

And I’ve become tired

I don’t feel like crying

I’m bored

You make me feel ignored

I want to run away from you

But you sit right behind me

And tie me up

It feels even worse than the strings I’ve felt before

You are not sorry

And I don’t really care

I want to find wings

And fly up in the air

Without any strings

Which you said are only good on a guitar

Rise above all

Without any bad memories

Become an angel, a bird

And become everything I could be

Untie me,

or back off and Ill untie myself

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I take it back

I take it back
every song, every poem
every hug, every smile
everytime I stood up for you
every letter that I wrote
the ones you did not get
Ill burn those
and the ones you have?
well, ha burn them too

because I dont want damn memories
that wont last
because I dont want to feel
words you'll never say
because I take it all back

you where right
I can be stupid sometimes
and you can push over me all the time
but now, I DO mind
because your hugs dont make it better no more

because Im your nothing
Im your no one
I take it ALL back.

so far away

when you say that you love me

I just dont believe it

you are always ready to walk away

and never turn around

when people describe a friend

the way they think it is sounds flawless

you are not like that when you come to mind

there are many things I cant understand

numbers, logic, the way you are, your state of mind

no matter how much I try to make you happy

there is always something that isnt right

Im getting a hard time with that

when I say that I love you

you should know that I mean it

but Im giving you my love like its extra change

and I know its supposed to be worth millions

but you leave me out like a penny in the rain

and I feel bad about making so many mistakes

what if one of this days I need you?

could I call you up at 3:00 am to say hello?

could I run to you whenever I need a hug?

would you help me find a way when I know im lost?

people say:

back off

give it time

its gonna be alright

walk away

hang in there

I think most of them dont know what they say

do they know what I feel?

when I stay up and think about everything she said

when I wake up and cry about yesterday

when I feel left out, when I feel ignored

when I dont feel ok, when everything is wrong

cant write a single word

cuz it all gets messed up

sometimes I think

I dont know myself

and all I know its her

but every other day

you are standing there

saying you wont walk away

and everything's ok

but the next day

that hug feels so far away

and I dont want to end up losing you

or worse, losing myself

dont really know how I feel

dont even know if this is real

Im just writing down a bunch of words

they made sense in my head today

dont know if I have been thinking them since yesterday

dont know if tommorrow things may change

all I know is you are standing there

Im standing here

and that hug still feels so far away

from yesterday...

love.. always..! ♥

hope! ♥

will you come around?

I don't give a damn about her vain emotions
couldnt care less if she looks like your angel
all I know is that I'm scared
because if you had to choose between her
and awkward me
you wouldn't think twice
you would choose her in the blink of an eye
no, I don't want you to choose
I just want to know that if you had to
that there could be a small chance you could choose me.

I don't understand why
but she is everything you see
she is your perfection as perfect as a rainy day
you know what?
fine.
go with her
lets see how long it lasts
lets see how long she puts up with you
with the things you say and everything that you do
when it all comes to an end
I'll be right here waiting for you

I know you'll come around
I don't give up on friends
I'm always on your side
no one and I mean no one can ever change that
I dare them to try!

no one can see it our way
can we agree to disagree?
you think it would be easier
whenever you are not with me
but somehow we'll make it through
cuz we deserve it
I know you are worth it
you can't give up on friends
we need a little help
but none of us wants to call

so go.
I know you'll come around
well I hope you'll come around
will you come around?


"she is perfect in unusual ways, I'm not. right?
love...always....
hope..!

( Andrea) yeap I want an answer